I'm taking a break from my usual late afternoon bike ride today due to rain. Lots of it. Buckets. And I'm glad, because we needed it badly.
I read a widow/widower forum regularly, and it is very helpful. You find every kind of emotion imaginable, and many others in your situation. You also find some on the cynical side, like myself. Today I found the most apt quote:
"Long relationships are almost always high maintenance I think."
So TRUE. All marriages have ups and downs, and I suspect many are NOT as rosy as they appear to outsiders. Still, marriage is often preferred by the majority. Not for me though, not ever again. I am positive I will NEVER change my mind on that.
Good news: Finally settled the air ambulance issue favorably. And it was partly due to my mad writing skilz! :-) I also finalized the annuity, making a decision on the beneficiary that will HELP homeless animals when I die.
Bad news: Can't get back in the mood to write enough. I spend some time writing, but have a difficult time finding the "magic" of past creative involvement. Perhaps it is a matter of habit I lack? It took years to get into a regular, daily writing habit, so why should I expect it to return without that dedication again?
I'll close with two quotes that will give you some food for thought:
"Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature. Nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is a daring adventure or nothing." --Helen Keller
Lady Nancy Witcher Langhorne (1879-1964)last words:"Am I dying or is is this my birthday?"